Hey Tommy,
Yep! Exactly the same. That scenario happened to me and lasted about a year.
Now, only occassionally--that's the good news. Go with it. I faught it, got scared and depressed--a waste of dream world .
Best I can guess (for me)was a total realignment of my way of thinking about thinking. Ie... the world, politics, relationships, reality and religion-- All of which I did a 180 degree shift. HUGE!
Actually was dragged into isolation. I didn't want that, but that was the way of it for me. No phone calls, very little social life outside of work, and a lot of contemplating of leftover stuff. Did I choose this....Hmmm, I not sure?
Krishnamurtie, a brilliant but dead India guy, calls it a sort of buffing out the scratches in your mind....and so be aware immediately when the scratch happens and to allow the feelings emotions/energies to happen and then just let them go--takes about 10 seconds...it is a big "oh well"...NEXT!
Don't take anything in your movie very seriously or personally because no one is watching--it's a do it yourself reality course.
Sleeper's 101 is very clear, No hate and evny and then slap it into fourth gear and enjoy....Just starting that phase now...The day dream is real and takes the sweats to get there.
Understand, I functioned well at my job throughout the salt mine phase...well, I faked it pretty good-- at times even excelled at my work.
It's all a game, filled with situations with their emotional tests that Sleeper is letting us understand a bit more.
The ET are us. We are just a reflection or mirror of our icky leftover gotta fix stuff and our ET buddies slam dunk it back at cha' if you are ready. If your not, you wouldn't be sweating.
I just happened to be on board (s) and witnessed a magnificent John Lear transformation via his posts.
I think it may have something to do with a simple "what the heck" clarity to the reality of this world and how we want to fit in..
Sleeper paints the picturre as it is. And his drips go very deep.
Sleeper is the Band director. He calls the tunes, watches the audience reaction, modifies the program, determines the union breaks, pays the pipers. Sleeper is preparing all of us on board for some reason...Milton ain't talking.
It's John Lears fault, but only 100%. John is the bouncer at the door....and a very dirty dancer.