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Post by Eevee on Feb 23, 2011 3:00:37 GMT -5
I don't actually think it happened V, I honestly think it was all in my head, and a bit of wishful thinking. I mean, why on earth would Milton do that!
I'm sure Milton has much more interesting things to do like planning where in Lou's secret garden he's going to plant his yoohoo trees, or sticking pins in his eyes maybe. ;D
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Post by Lou on Feb 23, 2011 11:08:00 GMT -5
I don't actually think it happened V, I honestly think it was all in my head, and a bit of wishful thinking. I mean, why on earth would Milton do that! I'm sure Milton has much more interesting things to do like planning where in Lou's secret garden he's going to plant his yoohoo trees, or sticking pins in his eyes maybe. ;D There's some wicked vines with billions of sharp needles on them, that I got entangled in one day. One slapped me across the face. Talk about your "pins in the eyes". How did you know? You been hanging with Milton? ;D Oh, and btw, he found just the right spot for his yoohoo tree. I didn't even know yoohoos grew on trees, swing on them maybe.
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Post by Eevee on Feb 24, 2011 3:00:27 GMT -5
There's some wicked vines with billions of sharp needles on them, that I got entangled in one day. One slapped me across the face. Talk about your "pins in the eyes". How did you know? That's what happens when you start monkeying around Lou. How could I resist hanging with Milton when he hit me with such a unique chat up line...."Me Tarzan, you Jane" Cool! I might just swing by and check it out one day. ;D
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Post by Izarith on Feb 24, 2011 3:37:39 GMT -5
How could I resist hanging with Milton when he hit me with such a unique chat up line...."Me Tarzan, you Jane" Sleeper did look petty cool on that vine lol. The little Blue Tarzan must have shown him the ropes.
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Post by kyazl on Feb 25, 2011 7:44:08 GMT -5
I haven't read this entire thread but I intend to when I have the chance as it's all very fascinating and it instantly reminded me of the film Paprika (excellent film btw).
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Post by cojoda on Apr 17, 2011 4:37:09 GMT -5
Last night was a bit interesting. I remember being in sleep paralysis having the feeling that I was floating through the air. At the time my eyes were closed, but I remember being aware that it was an abduction and I was kinda excited. ;D Next I remember being back in my room, in SP, and I knew something was still in the room with me. I very, very vaguely remember opening my eyes and seeing it, but just very, very vaguely. There was a very bright blueish light coming through the windows. I was a kinda afraid, and I was aware of what was happening. I was really trying my best to overcome the fear. Finally, it left, and I finally woke up. It didn't really bother me too much as I went straight back to sleep. Then in the morning I had this very vivid dream. There were these 2 entities telling me about how the time was near for me to leave earth. They said my mission was up and they were prepping me for my time to go. I wasn't afraid of death at all and was worried and asked about how this would effect my family. I was worried that leaving now would undo the people I had come down here to help. They told me that they would still have some hope of me being alive because my body would be in a coma. They wouldn't tell me how I would die, but just said there would be some type of accident and that I wouldn't feel a thing. Next I was walking into this bar I didn't recognize. In this part of the dream I was very aware that the time of my death was very near. I saw an old friend I haven't seen in a few years, so I sat next to him and we talked for a couple of minutes. I ordered a beer and some hot wings. The TV in the bar was turned to the news and an interesting story caught my attention. Scientists had spotted a small planet like object between Mercury and the sun. They didn't know were it had come from and it had already moved to the opposite side of the sun and wasn't currently visible from earth. I remember thinking: I wonder how NASA is going to explain this one, well they'll think of something. That was the end of the dream. I really don't know what to make of it all, but I kinda hope it really was just a dream. The thing is, is that it makes everything in my life, especially some of the bad parts make absolute perfect sense. After reading much of sleepers stuff, I have found a deep sense of peace I've never felt before. Even right now, I'm not afraid to die, I would just be worried about how it would effect my family. Maybe it is just a dream and I've been reading a bit too much of sleepers stuff. ;D It's been over two years since I made that post. At the time I wasn't sure if I had lost my sanity, making something out of nothing, or really anything for certain. The biggest question in my mind: what if it is true? And if it was, then when? A few days, weeks, months, years, a decade? So, what was the sense in worrying about such a thing. Around the same time I had a dream in which a doctor told me I was dying or a brain tumor. Now, both of these two dreams shared an almost unheard of feature in my dreams. My dreams are NEVER straight forward or direct. Both of these dreams were VERY direct. Now fast forward to about 5 months ago... I started having tons of GI problems: severe constipation, obstrutions, VERY severe bloating/swelling, gas, etc. 2 ER visits, a colonoscopy/EGD, and $10k in medical bills later: nothing. About the same time I started noticing problems swallowing liquids. Mostly just occasional pain. However, it kept getting worse. This was followed by very sudden and noticable changes in proprioception (your body's sense of its own location/size in space in relation to other body parts). My hands felt almost like they were missing, or sometimes much larger than they are. Now, with my severe Narcolepsy it can be hard to see symptoms from other neurological illnesses, since it effects so much. However, cataplexy (voluntary muscle paralysis usually due to experiencing emotion) like described, only effects voluntary muscles. Swallowing is involuntary, and is also strongly tied to your body's propriception. That's when I first started suspecting something might be wrong. My thought at the time: MS. A month ago, my tongue went numb, followed the next day by by lower gum around my lips. No paralysis. A week later the feeling returned. Two weeks ago I started to notice a very reduced sense of touch/pain around my whole body. Eventually, my left side went almost completely numb. It kind of comes and goes in different sections. As a body part is going numb it feels like a very reduced pins and needles (body part going to sleep) type of sensation. Over the past month I also started noticing lots of muscle twitches, tremors, and weakness. The weakness gets the worst on the left side. The swallowing issues are much more severe. It is now constant and with solids. Before, it was just pain. Now, I have to be careful not to get it around my trachea, or it will go down the wrong pipe. About a week ago is when I first started noticing the headaches. These headaches were VERY different than anything I've ever felt before. At first they weren't painful. They were more like a very precise dull pressure. Over the course of the week the "dull pressure" would momuntarily become a (still precise) sharp pressure. Now, the dull pressure is constant. It is located on the back of by head, above my neck, on the right side. I also started feeling a constant and even more precise prickeling/moving feeling right on the back of my neck, a little bit below where it meets the head, dead center. It almost feels like a bug crawling on my skin. Brushing up on my anatomy revealed it the exact localion of the fourth ventricle, with allows cerebral spinal fluid to flow from the brain to the spinal cord. The other pain (the dull/sometimes sharp pressure) happens to be the exact location of cerebelum (in the right hemisphere) which almost all movement/sensory paths run thought. As the pain in the back of the head hit it's worst I started feeling pressure/pain on the back of my right eye. It became dilated. I started noticing vision loss in the left field of both eyes. I only became aware of this about a week ago when I got my drivers license renewed. I barely saw the red light that was flashing on my left side during the vision test. Now it's gotten to the point that it's constantly noticable. And that's where I am today. I thought I would let you guys know, just in case something happens where I end up in the ER/hospital and don't have a change to post this message. I'll do my best to let you guys know what happens and will keep you updated. And just in case something happens where I'm not given a chance to say so, thanks Lou, for everything! Who knew that the answers were always right there in front of me, hidden in plain sight! ;D Now watch go and find out it is nothing more than just stress...
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Post by vortices on Apr 17, 2011 12:07:07 GMT -5
Warmest greetings Cojoda, I just finished reading your post and I feel compelled to tell you that I am feeling both sadness(that dang 3D human software) but also overwhelming joy for you.
It would appear that the time the ETs were prepping you for is nearly here. You get to go home. Soon you may find yourself waking up from this dream on earth and be surrounded by the love, light and truth of your real existence.
I envy you Cojoda, but in the most joyful of ways. Life here in 3D land can be burdensome at time but also magical....this morning when I got to work, I had to stop in mid conversation with some co-workers to go outside and gaze out at a very magnificent sunrise.
I bid you peace Cojoda, vortices
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Post by Izarith on Apr 18, 2011 2:29:06 GMT -5
And just in case something happens where I'm not given a chance to say so, thanks Lou, for everything! Who knew that the answers were always right there in front of me, hidden in plain sight! ;D Now watch go and find out it is nothing more than just stress... Cojoda, Well your spirits seem high and that's the way it should be. But just in case your worried, please get your blood sugar tested. My father was crapping his pants literally, he was afraid of leaving the house because he had so little control over his bum hole. He made over 8 trips to the VA hospital and did a crazy amount of tests like, blood, stool, urine. Those pieces of shit, asshole, worthless f**k head, murderous that dare call themselves doctors did not even find that my fathers blood sugar was about to put him into a coma. The only reason my father found out he was killing him self with all the juice, white bread, pop tarts, candy and soda he was eating is because he got his blood sugar tested for a free dentist school down here in Mexico to get his teeth fixed. The doctor of the school showed my father the results of his blood sugar contents and told him he was way to much of a liability to be practiced on. So do me that favor Cojoda, get your blood sugar levels tested and get back to me with them, I"ll try to point you in the right direction to lowering it. Just standard things like eating mostly protein, only butter for cooking, very low carbs ( no more than 1 or 2 slices of bread a day) and a lot of exercise will make you feel like new. Your going to be all right bud. Don't get me wrong your going to die we all are but drink only water until you do, because the moral of this story is kool aid really does kill...to much sugar LOL! Izzy. P.S. If anyone on this board is a doctor from the VA, f**k YOU!
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Post by muse on Apr 18, 2011 8:19:01 GMT -5
Thanks Izzy, I have been eating way too much sugar lately,,,was not feeling well....bet it was the sugar.
My drs damn near killed me a few months ago..I hear ya!
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Post by cojoda on Apr 18, 2011 19:54:01 GMT -5
Thanks for the input Izzy.
I had tests done both before and after (last one 3 weeks ago) the colonoscopy/egd. My GI doctor wanted to check for gluten antibodies (celiac disease), blood sugar, and a few other things. All were just fine. Plus, there are some symptoms of hyperglycemia that I lack, such as increased urination/thirst, increased hunger, increased sweating. I've don't have a bad diet, I don't eat too much sugar/carbs, never been overweight, and have no family history of similar disorders.
The scariest symptoms I'm having are the visual/eye symptoms. The headaches seem to be consistent with increased intra-cranial pressure that causes obstruction with cerebral spinal fluid. This is what causes headaches associated with brain tumors. The worst numbness/weakness and vision loss issues are on my left side (left field of vision in each eye for vision). The worst part of the headaches are on the right side. The scariest part is that stuff like holding my mouth/nose shut while trying to forcefully breath out (which causes increase in cerebral spinal fluid pressure) causes the headache to get worse, which causes the symptoms to get worse, with causes a sense of pressure/pain behind my right eye, which then causes the right pupil to dilate separately from the left eye. It's stuff like that which scares the crap out of me!
Thats the thing with these types of neurological symptoms. So many disorders cause such similar symptoms. Celiac disease, MS, ALS, MG (just to name a few) can cause similar symptoms. And until my MRI, I won't know anything for sure.
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Post by cojoda on Apr 30, 2011 4:11:03 GMT -5
Well, after the last couple of days, I feel convinced enough to say I'm getting off this rock and going home. I'll admit, I'm a little scared of the whole dying thing. It's not death that scares me, just the processing of getting there. I just hope I don't have too much pain. I was told the pain wouldn't be that bad and they would take me pretty quickly. I'm still waiting for an MRI. Kinda sucks having no health insurance. I was waiting for my medical imaging patient assistant application to go through. but now they want some bloody medicare denial paperwork. Problem is, I've never applied for medicare. Oh well, I already owe them $4000 for my CT for my GI problems. I guess I'll just have to suck it up and go to the ER. They can't deny me care. The headaches are getting to be pretty bad. My neck is also getting pretty stiff. Pressure is definitely building up there in my head, and fast. And I guess hot showers increase intracranial pressure, because todays shower gave me the worst headache type pain I've ever felt. I could definitely feel the pressure building, pushing at the back of my neck and skull. It felt like the back of my neck was gonna burst. I'm starting to think that my planned ER visit might have to be this weekend, but we'll see. Anyways, I'll keep you guys posted! If you don't hear from me again, then it's cause either of a brain herniation causing lethal brain stem compression, or I went to the ER, waited 6 hrs in the waiting room, finally got an MRI, then some "bad news", had emergency brain surgery, and never woke up again... In which case, see ya all on the other side! ;D
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Post by bob on Apr 30, 2011 12:32:08 GMT -5
I guess I'll just have to suck it up and go to the ER. They can't deny me care. Hiya Cojoda! You can usually work out a payment plan with the hospital if you don't have insurance. For example, in my similar situation, they agreed to accept $50 per month (without interest). I pray for the best outcome to your current situation, and that it be easy for you, however it plays out. Blessings!
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Post by Izarith on Apr 30, 2011 18:56:32 GMT -5
Well, after the last couple of days, I feel convinced enough to say I'm getting off this rock and going home. I'll admit, I'm a little scared of the whole dying thing. It's not death that scares me, just the processing of getting there. I just hope I don't have too much pain. I was told the pain wouldn't be that bad and they would take me pretty quickly. Anyways, I'll keep you guys posted! If you don't hear from me again, then it's cause either of a brain herniation causing lethal brain stem compression, or I went to the ER, waited 6 hrs in the waiting room, finally got an MRI, then some "bad news", had emergency brain surgery, and never woke up again... In which case, see ya all on the other side! ;D I´m sorry to hear going though this Cojo, What ever happens just remember that you will be fine. Oh by the way, just in case, the scardyest cat buys the drinks on the otherside. Izzy.
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Post by baddeddie on Apr 30, 2011 21:37:49 GMT -5
My heart and thoughts are with you cojoda. I know at least one blind squirrel who'll be buying a round of drinks on the other side too!!!
Eddie
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Post by cojoda on May 2, 2011 3:10:54 GMT -5
Well, I put off going to the ER so far (I'm really not looking forward to the 6 hour wait), but I may not have a choice. As I scramble to write this, I'm quickly loosing vision in both eyes. This morning I started noticing problems urinating. It's now gotten to the point where I can't tell at all if I need to go. My lower abdomen feels full and painful on pressure indicating incomplete emptying. Tonight I starting experiencing inconsistency (leaking). Today I also started experiencing mild muscle weakness and paralysis throughout my whole body. Many of my muscles are starting to feel tight. I'm also experiencing cognitive changes. Actually, I think I've been feeling them for a while, it's just hard to tell the difference between possible brain damage and severe sleep deprivation due to the severe narcolepsy. But now it's become definite. I've been experiencing a lot of apathy (lack of emotion) as well as fits of anxiety and a sense of impending doom. The anxiety just started today and feels very unnatural. There's also problems concentrating, memory recall problems, and the like. This morning I awoke to what I now assume was a partial seizure. I woke up to an extreme pressure inside my head, my ears suddenly they were filled with fluid (like I was underwater), I lost hearing, then tunnel vision, I stopped breathing, freaked out that I couldn't breath, realized that I no longer felt the need to breath, and then wished I had been given a chance to tell my family I love them. And then I was fully conscious and gasping for air. My guess is that a primary malignant brain tumor has increased intracranial pressure to the point of a hemorrhage or has caused brain herniation into my spinal column. Based on the rate of growth and duration of onset of headaches, it could be a Glioblastoma Multiforme. These happen to be one of the most common types of primary brain tumors, and also the most deadly. Basically nobody survives them. (Grade IV tumor) They basically double in size every week. That's my best guess anyways. I'm staying at my folks, so I'm about to wake them up (it's 2am in the morning here) and head to the ER. Well maybe after a quick bite to eat. Yeah I know, I'm a big time procrastinator. Anyways, just in case thanks all. I'll do my best to keep you all updated. If you don't here from me again, assume I'm off this rock. And I've got the first round of drinks on the other side.
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