Post by bluegirl on Oct 27, 2008 17:42:41 GMT -5
Basically as a child i experienced what a doctor diagnosed as night terrors for several years, which i have memories of being absolutely terrified ,.. then
As an adult i have experienced so called sleep paralysis but i do know for a certainty that i was not, and had not been asleep. For instance one night i had just turned off the tv and decided to sit on the lounge and have one more smoke before bed. I was sitting on the lounge smoking my cigarette <<<<(yes i know bad) when the whole house shook. Silly as it sounds i thought omg i think we just had a small earthquake, even though where i live has never to my knowledge ever had such a thing. I went running into the bedroom to ask my partner if he felt the earthquake (as he had only just gone to bed himself and was not yet asleep). He said no it was probably a truck and brushed me off. I eventually convinced myself that i was being silly and eventually went to bed. However i couldnt sleep. For about an hour or more i talked to my partner about my day had eventually said goodnight........ then about 10 or 15 minutes later i had a strange feeling of being watched, i would feel what ever it was outside the house, i would "feel it" (almost like i could visualize it in my head, like seeing without looking, like my hearing was my eye sight) feel it come into the house, and feel it enter my room, though i could not see what "it" actually was or looked like. It is in that moment that i know they have come to get me. I hear this terrible noise in my ears that is actually extremely painful, I see these weird paterns in my mind. This noise seems to come in waves that last for a very long time, and each time it becomes stronger and more powerful until they have complete control. I also cannot see properly. I feel like they are over powering me on a conscious level (that is to say inside my head) and i feel like i am fighting this, but even though im fighting i feel like i know they will win. At first i can move just a little then after a little while I cannot move at all nor make noise myself........... Then i feel them leaving the room and then leaving the house Time passes, i do not know what happened............. or... if something actually did happen that i cant remember............ But i feel as if something i cannot quite recall "did" happen, .
I have had this happen whilst ive been totally awake during the afternoon reading a novel and one time whilst outside weeding my garden. I havent had it happen for a little while now, which most people would consider great, but i do not think of it as good, as i know that that means im due for it to happen again. I can honestly say that i fear these experiences more then what i fear most bad things in life, it is shear terror to go through this, just talking about it to my partner fills me with fear and i start to get really agitated and upset and i can actually feel the terror like im reliving it.. I was soo scared and paranoid of the next time it happening that i went to see a shrink cause i thought surely i have to be going nuts,,,,,,,,but apparently im quite sane, .
For some reason i am missing a lot of my memories all throughout my life, even things from like seven years ago i dont have such a good memory of, i am missing chunks of memory from around the times these things happen and i have to wonder if its not due to what may or may not be happening to me.
As well as these experiences i seem to be psychic to some extent, though i have no where near mastered it so to speak.
When i was a child i was visited by a light that i could "feel" outside etc same as above in a way except this time it wasn't painful just terrifying, and this time i saw other coloured lights (being a kid and having been naughty that day i actually thought it was the police, lol), the entity came into my room, levitated me off my bed, i felt like i was in a cocoon so to speak where by i could only kick and move inside this invisible barrier, i was screaming but no one heard me. The feeling i was getting of this light was that it was a very old male, old as in being ancient. In hindsight I felt like it was trying to communicate with me on some level but my fear was so intense. Once it did this levitation it put me back down and left the room.
I also have a memory that i cannot explain of another time and place. I am on a hill over looking a yellow crop, the wind is strong and a storm is blowing in around me. I feel like there is something that goes around my head and finishes either side of my forehead that is metallic. I am on top of the hill and i am very sad, and it has something to do with not being able to have children. It affected me that strongly that growing up i was convinced that i would not be able to have children. Long story short i have five children made up of two sets of twins and one other child too. (years before the girls were born i had dreampt repeatedly about these twin girls and my parents telling me they were mine).
I am terrified for my children who have told me that they have seen things that are not human and have also mentioned strange lights during the experience.
A few months ago i moved into a new house and was just thinking to myself how it hadnt happened in this house,,,,,,,,,,,,but as i was writing this stuff down the memory of it having happened in this house just kinda popped into my head making the hairs on the back of my neck stand up, i got instant goose bumps and feel really sick.
So anyways thats part of what i have been experiencing.
Sorry this is soooo long winded but i wanted to share my experience. Maybe someone else out there has the same experiences?
As an adult i have experienced so called sleep paralysis but i do know for a certainty that i was not, and had not been asleep. For instance one night i had just turned off the tv and decided to sit on the lounge and have one more smoke before bed. I was sitting on the lounge smoking my cigarette <<<<(yes i know bad) when the whole house shook. Silly as it sounds i thought omg i think we just had a small earthquake, even though where i live has never to my knowledge ever had such a thing. I went running into the bedroom to ask my partner if he felt the earthquake (as he had only just gone to bed himself and was not yet asleep). He said no it was probably a truck and brushed me off. I eventually convinced myself that i was being silly and eventually went to bed. However i couldnt sleep. For about an hour or more i talked to my partner about my day had eventually said goodnight........ then about 10 or 15 minutes later i had a strange feeling of being watched, i would feel what ever it was outside the house, i would "feel it" (almost like i could visualize it in my head, like seeing without looking, like my hearing was my eye sight) feel it come into the house, and feel it enter my room, though i could not see what "it" actually was or looked like. It is in that moment that i know they have come to get me. I hear this terrible noise in my ears that is actually extremely painful, I see these weird paterns in my mind. This noise seems to come in waves that last for a very long time, and each time it becomes stronger and more powerful until they have complete control. I also cannot see properly. I feel like they are over powering me on a conscious level (that is to say inside my head) and i feel like i am fighting this, but even though im fighting i feel like i know they will win. At first i can move just a little then after a little while I cannot move at all nor make noise myself........... Then i feel them leaving the room and then leaving the house Time passes, i do not know what happened............. or... if something actually did happen that i cant remember............ But i feel as if something i cannot quite recall "did" happen, .
I have had this happen whilst ive been totally awake during the afternoon reading a novel and one time whilst outside weeding my garden. I havent had it happen for a little while now, which most people would consider great, but i do not think of it as good, as i know that that means im due for it to happen again. I can honestly say that i fear these experiences more then what i fear most bad things in life, it is shear terror to go through this, just talking about it to my partner fills me with fear and i start to get really agitated and upset and i can actually feel the terror like im reliving it.. I was soo scared and paranoid of the next time it happening that i went to see a shrink cause i thought surely i have to be going nuts,,,,,,,,but apparently im quite sane, .
For some reason i am missing a lot of my memories all throughout my life, even things from like seven years ago i dont have such a good memory of, i am missing chunks of memory from around the times these things happen and i have to wonder if its not due to what may or may not be happening to me.
As well as these experiences i seem to be psychic to some extent, though i have no where near mastered it so to speak.
When i was a child i was visited by a light that i could "feel" outside etc same as above in a way except this time it wasn't painful just terrifying, and this time i saw other coloured lights (being a kid and having been naughty that day i actually thought it was the police, lol), the entity came into my room, levitated me off my bed, i felt like i was in a cocoon so to speak where by i could only kick and move inside this invisible barrier, i was screaming but no one heard me. The feeling i was getting of this light was that it was a very old male, old as in being ancient. In hindsight I felt like it was trying to communicate with me on some level but my fear was so intense. Once it did this levitation it put me back down and left the room.
I also have a memory that i cannot explain of another time and place. I am on a hill over looking a yellow crop, the wind is strong and a storm is blowing in around me. I feel like there is something that goes around my head and finishes either side of my forehead that is metallic. I am on top of the hill and i am very sad, and it has something to do with not being able to have children. It affected me that strongly that growing up i was convinced that i would not be able to have children. Long story short i have five children made up of two sets of twins and one other child too. (years before the girls were born i had dreampt repeatedly about these twin girls and my parents telling me they were mine).
I am terrified for my children who have told me that they have seen things that are not human and have also mentioned strange lights during the experience.
A few months ago i moved into a new house and was just thinking to myself how it hadnt happened in this house,,,,,,,,,,,,but as i was writing this stuff down the memory of it having happened in this house just kinda popped into my head making the hairs on the back of my neck stand up, i got instant goose bumps and feel really sick.
So anyways thats part of what i have been experiencing.
Sorry this is soooo long winded but i wanted to share my experience. Maybe someone else out there has the same experiences?