Hey everybody,
first of all, my grammar is truly bad, but I´ll give my best, so perhaps you can understand all the strange things I write down
and... maybe it will be much more you can stand. (because of the grammar)
Let´s start at the beginning.
I was 3 years old, when I woke up at night, my grandmother looking really scared at me, touching my skin, all long repeating "She has a
temperature". Well, my skin felt hot, but I didn´t feel aguish. But rather than there would be too little water inside my body to cool it down.
I´m sure you know how it feels while you have a temperature, your skin is hot but you tremble. This wasn´t the case.
I didn´t understand what my grandparents were talking about in the taxi on the way to hospital.
In hospital they gave me a shot. That´s all. The doctor said, everything was ok. I only was very very tired, infact it was middle in the night.
After this things changed. My grandparents were always keeping an eye on me. Always an everywhere.
Since this time, strange dream recured untill an age of 9. About a light in the sky, which I didn´t want to see me or my grandma.
I think, I was about 5 years old, when my grandpa first red something loudly about an ufo sight. I was beside myself. He had to read the
article again and again. I had so many questions to him.
The dreams were getting little bit obscure, about abdominal oparation. I wasn´t scared about it, untill I was old enough to comprehend what
this means. Already at this age I understood that it seems sick to think it was ok, someone slit your stomach.
I grown up in Poland, nobody in my family had a TV. The article in the newspaper, was the first time, I heard something about the little
green men. And... they called them really little green man, he was sitting in a tree and waving with a lantern at a truck driver, which nearly
crashed.
My family, except my grandparents, moved to germany, when I was nine.
The dreams stopped.
At an age of 13-14 my interest in extra terrestial beeing again awake.
I received access to many more literature about ufo and esoteric. First lucid dreams. First time I had OBE.
The first step was to remember every dream. I think, it´s only the decision you make about that. Perhaps it´s easier when youre a kid.
At age of 16 I think, I bought a regression cd. But it didn´t work very well... I thought first.
This was not OBE, but a very lucid dream.
I had fun. I played with some others in a dark place. The only light came right from our bodys. They were transparent, like ghosts are.
And we had a lot of fun. But something seems wrong, apparently just for me. There was a voice which told us to change our cloths. We
wore some linen cloth, it was also transparent.
We put the old linen cloth off, and received new. The voice, voices, who told us to do this turned out to be people looking the same we
look like. But bigger, also lucent. I held the new robe in my hands and looked at it, it seems to be clammy. Drenched with some smeary
substance. Something in my head screamd out loudly: "Don´t put it on!" "It will cause you stay here and don´t remember"
You can imagine what I did.
The first memories broke through. "Why am I here? They can´t do this to me! They are wrong!" "They even didn´t want to here what
I have to say." I remember beeing like them. Working with them. But... then.. I don´t know what happend... something went wrong and they
judged me. (Now I think so) The last thought was: "There must be another way to judge me an the other souls. We don´t want to stay in
this condition, beeing kept enclosed in a cage and under "drugs". (This happiness was because of this substance)
So I put away the linen cloth, went to the others an told them everything. Some believed, other didn´t. The big ones looked the hole time
and watched with higher interest.
Then, without talking, they catched me an some more and put me away. Here I dont remember what happend.
I found myself in space in an orb or something. Few lights outside, stars very far away. The orb was fast, I reached a solar system.
After passing two planets I get a hunch where I was... Venus, than Mars... and I noticed that the way this orb was flying continued along a
loop. There it was.. the Moon! and... then our Earth. "The Earth! This is the Earth!! They send me to earth!"
And there was nothing, wide blue oceans and a green you have never ever again seen on this planet!
The spiral (here I don´t know the right word for it: the spiral arms get closer to the middle of it)
I fall down, right into the rain forrest.
There was a big clearing inside the woods. In the middle stood a... machine, someone knelt beside it. Cable run from this machine. It
seems that this thing hoover my soul inside of it. Than I saw the machine from its side. ^^ looked like a big
Mr. Gorge Clooney Coffeemachine xD ok... just a little bit. There were two big black cones, with its apex pointing on each other.
The dude handle the machine stood in front of it. He looked like a Maya or Inka. He had some feathers on his head, doesn´t wear much
more than some adornment, tatoos and loincloth.
For a half of a second, I saw between the two apex some wafting liquid like tar. Then the hand of the man.
Abruply it gets dark around me. The man opened cautiously his hand, the light gloom between his fingers, my view gets a little bit outside
and.... I become clear about that I was a little worm.
The view changed anew. I was the worm. My thoughts first: "They gave me this body!! OMG!!" The man was laughing at me. For him it
seems to be ok, it was his job. He had to settle down low livebeeing on the earth.
Than I started to forget everything. More and more I changed into the worm: "Light=bad=Birds" "Shadow=rush!" "Green=food"
The man puts me down on a green leaf.
Ok thats it. My first life on this earth. Great stuff beeing a worm! ^^
I won´t ever forget his smile. Knowing everything about me.
Yes, this is a prison.
Experiment? I don´t know.
Is it ok? I hope so.
Considering the OBEs... you always return to your body. They won´t let you go. I tried to fly fast with my soul during OBE, but there is
always a limit.
For now, its all. I´m tired. First text in english since ... seven years o.O
There is so much more to say... see ya.
Thanks for your time!
I would be glad, you read this. And thanks for sharing your story esteay!!